what I see.

The Hostel where I being....

 From my window

my hobby...reading, photography,

Home

Home is a place where I love most in my life
there was no exchange before

Now, I feel like to run far away as I can
I can't breath easily like before, it always stuck at my throat.
I need new air, new person,  new identity may be

Who am I before, I also can't remember
hopefully the negative image not appear at this timeline of my life.

The way going home make me happy as always, the same highway entertain me
but it's just a dream, the person not there anymore

my heart hurt when thinking about home...

5 years

summary for the past 5 years

Heartburn in the middle of night like I am having bad gastric problem
Chest tightness like angina attack in the day
Palpitation and dizziness, oh I'm going to collapse, Anemic?
Sweats a lots like I am having thyroid problem even no neck swelling
elephant legs when whole day stand for ward round

what ever it is
I am always love this field very much
Medicine part of me...

Dr...

Being a doctor is my dream,
Dr.Wan Fatimah Suriyani Wan Mahmud

Love it very much even it is hard to say
my lovely one not together share the moment
ma, i am already a doctor
thank you Allah
thanks ma for everything you teach me before
thanks lecturer
thanks ayah, kak su, ina, lily n all others family members
thanks roomates, future dr. fizah, siti, suzie, ummie
thanks the 8 girls....love you all.... especially Dr Mas, Dr Mel, Dr Nabihah, Dr Mimi, Dr Syah, Dr Jeryn

Miracle...

Tomorrow I really hope the miracle will come,
First time not get wish from you mom, I missed you.

Might be another people will take place the job and bring a moon for me...
Hopefully, the miracle come true....
I will accept it in whatever you are..

Being my friend along this way toward next life...

A baby with fitting episode

Approaching
Hi, I'm medical student, how are you? What you name Madame?
The baby name? How old is he?
What can I know why you coming here?
" my child has fit"
Is it first time? How long the fit episode? Duration? What the baby do during that time? What are your action?
The fit resolve spontaneously? What happen to the baby, any abnormal movement? Any Other symptom
: uprooting eyes, drooling of salivation, urinary incontinence
Post ictal: how is the baby? Drowsy, weakness, crying, any loss of consciousness
Any repeated episodes of fit?
How long you take to being to hospital

Exclude Differential diagnosis
Meningitis, hypoglycaemic! URTI, UTI, AGE 

The baby having fever? Duration? What day the fit develop? Pattern of fever? High grade, rigor,resolve with antipyretic? Sought treatment? What given by the clinic, any blood investigation done? How the result? After taking medication fever resolve or not?Antibiotic?
Last meal taken before fit episode? Any loss of appetite since illness, reduce oral intake?
Rhinorrhea, color of discharge?
Cough? Phlegm, nature? Taking medication, resolve? On day what it develop? Any rapid breathing, chest in drawing noted, wheezing, 
Inconsolable crying, activity daily, oral intake ? Any reduction. Irritability, skin rashes, bowel open, how the stool? Changes? Color? Frequency?blood stained, mucus,
Urination, color? Smelly, blood, pus,increase in frequency, crying during urination.vomiting episode?
Who taking care of him,N   baby sitter? Other child had fever  or same symptoms, any family member ? Contact with tb patient?
Pmhx
Admission to the ward before? Underlying disease
Prenatal. Infection during pregnancy
Intapartum, asphyxia, resuscitation? Method of delivery 
Post. Jaundice, what day develop? Nice admission, treatment, blood taking daily
Fhx
Sibling? Having fit? Parent? Mr? Congenital ds,
Development . Delay? What he can do know
Immunization? Skipped? What currently, next ? Cx?

Nikmatnya rindu...

Rindu,
Teman baruku
Hadir saat aku perlukan
Sekadar layar imaginasi anganku

Rindu itu pedih
Rindu itu penghiburku
Rindu itu indah
Rindu pengubat pilu

Rindu yang sukar diungkap
Semoga zarah zarah angin sampaikannya Kisah rindu ini
Rindu.......
Sukar untuk dikongsi
Rindu pada bayangan memang mustahil
Yang tiada kesudahannya

Lemang tak lemak
Rendang tak enak
Raya sepi
Tanpa kasih di depan mata

Menangis di dalam
Senyum di luar
Egokah itu
Atau penipuan

Ketahuilah aku sekadar jasad tanpa jiwanya....saat hati pergi
Kejamnya, tidak jujur, hipokrit

Sayang

Sayang
Jangan menangis
Beban bahunya lagi

Lepaskan saja segalanya
Saat janji dituntut
Yang dipinjam bukan hak kita
Sayang redha lah

Indah nanti hati mu
Kalau sayang kirimkan doa
Pasti angin cuba lagu kan
Sang Pencipta lagi merahmati



TS , Cheras KL

7 bulan berpisah

Hati ku telah pergi

Pamitan tidak sekali 

Merentap pergi jiwa ini

Itu lah hatiku yang disayangi

Suatu ketika melewati lorong itu
Jiwa ku pergi bersamamu hati
Jiwa ini kaku tanpa hatinya
Biar berselirat saluran darah kasih menyiram
Hitam kelabu warnanya

Tahukah hati
Empat puluh lapan jam aku bermandi sendu
Jiwa kosong ini mati layu dek masa yang hadir
Luka rindu berkubur bersama

Pelukan hangat buat jiwa amat dirindui
Seindah hujan menari segar
Tiada ganti tiada cerita
Hati dan jiwa berpisah sementara


TS, Cheras kuala Lumpur

kota gelanggi highway

comel sayang 1

Muhammad Fariz Danish

Che Irfan Fazli

comel..sayang

 Che Iqram Fathi

Ahmad Murtadha Mahdawi

Wan Imthithal Nihlah

saat ini...ramadhan

Alhamdulillah bertemu lagi Ramadhan tahun ini
tahun lalu, ingatkan ianya yang terakhir buat diriku sebagai seorang pelajar dan bersama mak
"tahun ni my last year as student and with mak , ayah"
"raya ni jugak yang terakhir untuk adik"

SubhanAllah, memang sudah begitu perancangan Allah SWT
semuanya adalah buat diriku,
tahun ini, Ramadhan tanpa mak, syawal. jugak untuk sekian kalinya.
Tahun lalu, hampir setiap minggu aku pulang ke kampung kerana mahu merasa juadah air tangan mak
pulang awal sebelum raya, kerana mahu membantu mak memasak untuk satu syawal

Tahun ini berat sekali untuk aku pulang ke kampung, biarpun ayah masih disana bersama kakak

Syawal kali ini, pengalaman pertama menziarah pusara mak.....

tidak ada penyesalan sepatutnya, aku kena redakan segalanya.
tapi hati kecil tetap berbisik, indahnya kalau syawal yang ada potret aku bersama mak.....
tiada siapa yang salah, kerana sudah sedia maklum aku tidak suka bergambar.....kerana cukuplah memori itu terpahat utuh dijiwa kita....

setakat ini sahaja lakaran hatiku...Mak, adik doakan mak dilimpahi rahmat dari Allah- Al Fatihah....

An hour to live, an hour to love

I had read the book. Coincidencely, found the book at the shelves.Just simple book in cream and orange cover. No cover image. I guess you won't read it by seeing. The tittle had open my heart to read it loud. I hope every of you people take a chance to review the content, it is true story between Richard & Kris Carlson.

An hour to live:
- I will call my house, speak with my lovely mother and father.
- ask from them, forgiveness and told them
"I APPREACIATED THE MOMENT WE HAD BEFORE, I NEVER REGRETTED BEING THEIR DAUGHTER, I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AFTER ALLAH SWT AND RASUL"
- share my feeling, afraid of the moment I must leaves them. Hope prayers from both of my love.
- hope they will be my side, when the time to say goodbye come.

An hour to love:
- I will give my love mother and father big bear hug.
- I will share the story of my love, that never be mine.
- I want to cry loud at my mother chest like a baby
- I want to kiss my father cheek with loud sound
- I want the both of them realized THEIR LOVE ALWAYS RUN PROUDLY IN MY SOUL...



Pieces of word for my love mother & father
< ADIK >

Hobby...

KOLEKSI....

 FRUIT....THIS IS MY FAVOURITE

1st from me......

1st from me...just for my love one...

Acrylic, canvas

Ada dan tiada begitu berbeza.....

Adanya:

Rasa disayangi

Tempat berbual

Nak bermanja

Suka mendengar

Tiadanya:

Rasa tempang

Ditinggalkan sendirian

Telefon dah x berguna

Terumbang- ambing

Tertekan , cemburu dengan orang lain sebab semua punya ibu yang masih boleh mendoakan kejayaan

My love....forever....28012012

Beauty smile, soft touch and warm hug

This is what I adore

What I wait when I'm coming back home

Nice smell from your small hood

Your voice just like sound of piano

The tune dance well everyday I called

Never ever bore answering me

Even the same question

Just a lovely person

Just once in my life I had

Now, you leave waiting me there

I will keep all memoirs.

My heart beat together with my love for you...mom

al- Fatihah...for my beauty lover..my mom