That woman

One woman loves you
She loves you with all her heart
Everyday she follows you like a shadow
She is laughing but crying

How much more How much more
Must I gaze at you like this alone
This meaningless love, this miserable love
Must I continue for you to love me

Come closer a little bit more
When I take a step closer, you run away with both feet
I who loves you, even now I’m at your side
That woman is crying

That woman is very timid
So she learnt how to laugh
There are so many things she cannot tell her closest friend
That woman’s heart is full of tears

So that woman said she loved you because you were the same
Another fool, another fool
Won’t you hug me once before you go
I want to be loved, my dear
Everyday in my heart, in my heart
I shout out

That woman is beside you even today
Do you know that woman is me
Don’t tell me you know and are doing this to me
But you won’t know because my dear, you’re a fool

How much more How much more
Must I gaze at you like this alone
This foolish love, this miserable love
Must I continue for you to love me

Come closer a little bit more
When I take a step closer, you run away with both feet
I who loves you, even now I’m at your side
That woman is crying

"Secret Garden ost" 

palpitation

The moonlight shine brightly. Just like my hope for miracle. I love the view.
My heart beat like a drum post a cup o coffee, oh like a madness. The blood pump out for body demand. I hope the beat continue as I see him in person.
All is impossible, that why I love to torture my heart for being like I already meet Mr. Right, it is so lame.
Palpitation make me scare..

CONVOCATION...LOVE

THE MOMENT

WITH AYAH...LOVE

MUHAMMAD FARIZ DANISH

AHMAD MURTADHA MAHDAWI

Syawal

First time syawal in working mode. Nothing much different. It is alway same to me. Since mak not here anymore, the feeling of raya is plateau. Status quo. Nothing special. Home just a home. Being home make me feel sad, helpless.
I also hate working this day. It is better if just stay in my room , watching television.
Life is so complicated. Full of challenges.
Next year, where is my syawal n Ramadan. I still being here or not , no one know. Allah know everything.

Love.. Dr WFS.

Holiday before ramadhan, happy

Run for blood

Run for the blood

Sweat all over my body, I run even I' m not a runner. The journey feel so long, never end. Emergency now, run to blood bank, take blood as soon as possible. Exhausted. Bilateral leg cramp. In to, all surgeons and anest work harder. Trying to save one life. A person, such a young boy, at age of 24 year. Outside while I'm running for blood, I can see all family member gather and pray hard for his/ her son. Friends, sisters and brothers hope the best.

I'm just running across them, 4 hour duration operation done. Surgical damage control. He is in critical condition, the opertion only to control the massive bleeding from shattered liver. Nothing we can do. Only Allah know what the best. After transfuse more than ten packed cell, DIVC regime. Intraabdominal bleeding still never stop. All blood run like water from tap from tube to body, then the big pipe with massive broken still leak.

High intraabdominal pressure cause obstructing to renal system, as there was no more urine output. Bilateral leg mottling, bluish. BP never pick up even full fluid resuscitation given, with into rope for heart beat.

He survive for buying time until the next day. All family member understand than he will leaves this world soon. Tearing, with love and prayer make him go smoothly.
 This is one day story a person go to his Creator, Allah. Yesterday, he laugh, chats with family but today, he lying in bed with thousand line connected to body, need oxygen supply for breathing. That is our cycle, the life which is loan, will take away as faster as lightning.

For All, dr wan.

Being a doctor make you a busy person, but here is my work during off dayhttps://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10200093736359518&set=a.1549589653013.77402.1033238609&type=1&theater